Today...

Hello, again

I had quite a good day today but then when I got home I just totally crashed. I felt tired, miserable, angry, crowded even though there was no one in the room with me. I really don't understand why this is happening to me. I hate it. So much goes on in my head and there's so little I can do to describe it. I want to talk to somebody but I can't. There's no one that would listen, no one that would understand. No one I can trust to keep it to themselves. There's certain people I really don't want to know about this. My parents. My best friend (not the one who actually does know and doesn't care). My brother and sister. I don't want them to know. I don't. And I know that if I tell anyone then they'd just end up telling everyone else and I don't want that. I know they'd just be trying to help, but only I can really know what I think would help me and telling someone wouldn't. It'd just make me even more stressed and put me under even more pressure which could easily tip me over the edge that I'm only just balancing on right now. Right now, I really hate my life and I don't think it would be hard to end it at all.

Keep The Tears Falling

Let me keep the tears falling

They let me know I'm still alive

Let the rain keep on pouring

It's what I need just to survive

Let me keep the tears falling

And let me feel the pain

Let the rain keep on pouring

But nothing will I gain

Let me keep the tears falling

From my soul that I can't save

Let the rain keep on pouring

Like little kisses on my grave

Sometimes I wish I was ghost and I could go about my day as I would if I was there and see how much people actually cared that I was missing.

Oh, shoot, I have a four page english essay to write for tomorrow!

That's a really bad way to sign off but I have to go.

Sorry. Please come back soon and leave a comment!

Black Mariah.